Yes Maybell, I have to take care of me too so I am trying to take what's best for me into consideration too.
We just got home, had a great time! I ended up taking the baby with and the drive there (an hour and a half away) had me questioning my decision because the last 20 minutes he was not happy but he did great. We ended up being seated in the same section (out of 35000 people) with a big group of friends (a bunch of other couples H and I hang out with). So that was fun seeing all of them... was slightly wishing I was there childless like they were pounding some beers haha
H text me to thank me for the ticket and that he was about 10 minutes away, I didn't reply. He got there and I didn't realize the only empty seat was next to me so when he went to sit down I asked S6 to switch seats with me. We didn't talk or exchange words but I was happy and talkative with my dad,the boys and our friends.
There was a semi awkward moment when one of the dad's came up to H and was like so how is everything? everything going great at home with the new baby (he doesn't know anything) and H stumbled on his words because I think he thought he was caught and that I ratted him out. Once he realized the guy didn't know he was fine but I was laughing to myself at how he was like uhh what? huhh ummm
H went his separate way and asked the boys to come with, they declined. Both the boys passed out on the way home. My dad and I talked a bit, we both love to talk, and he said H is so delusional. He said how he tries to get in on our conversation and make talk about the stadium,etc. H and I usually take the boys to many games at that stadium throughout the season for the last 3 years, so we have a lot of fun memories there.
But ya, I think I did well today. I was a person that really in this moment doesn't care what he was doing. He was texting next to me pictures to people and I didn't even care to look over to see who it was... I just almost feel sorry for him... Not quite there yet but I look at this life we have and how lucky we are for all the things we have and our boys and our friends and think wow it's really that bad that it's worth giving up.
Hoping I can keep this up, but who knows. One day at a time.
Thank you for everyone's help with handling this situation
