Trying to detach from WTF world

[Treasur]

I think I'm not sure what my goals are now, for me yes. For the situation with my marriage, not so sure. I think there is just a big bit of me that is so tired of the horror and craziness of it that I just want to change tack and speed the divorce up so I can get away from it.

I still find it all a bit unbelievable that this is my husband, and that this is now our story. Which is ridiculous because it is real...but it's pretty hard to reconcile who we were together and where we are.