ILYBINILWY - OW - what to do next 3

[SJW]

I think I had something of an epiphany overnight, who knows it may only last today but if it does it one day not under the duvet!

My S left primary school yesterday and almost grew up in front of my eyes. Him and his friends cried and hugged at their leavers party and he said to my friends younger S, It takes a man to be able to show his emotions, crying is nothing to be ashamed of. I thought my heart would actually burst there and then. He had also shown so much compassion to another child earlier in the day and demonstrated what a kind, sensitive, caring young man he is becoming. The other Mum who I don't really know too well messaged me telling me what a credit my S is to me, so very proud.

We got up late this morning and were making pancakes together when H rang, I was not expecting that. Last time he had a clothing free weekend with OW we didn't hear from him as he said it didn't feel right to call. Maybe a stab of conscious for missing his S's last day yesterday, who knows and actually who cares. He asked Sif he went to cricket last night and S was genuinely shocked, he said no Daddy it was my leavers assembly. I was furious.

H got on the phone to me and asked about the assembly at church and the party. I gave him details and told him there were lots of pics on FB, he asked what I did, I didn't reply, he then asked what we were doing today and I said we had lots of plans. He asked if the kids were OK I said yes and tried to end the call, he said I'll call in the morning or something, I said OK bye.

I was pleasant, gave lots of info on the kids but not about me. I feel pretty good and a little indifferent to a person that can put OW before his S. I was there and experienced all of that pride, his choice meant that he missed out and he will never, ever get a re run of that day, his loss I say :-)