Stop trying to mind read - it really won't help and you cannot know what she is thinking unless she tells you. Go if you want to and it fits your DB/180 goals. But if you go, no expectations...think of it as a trip to the zoo with a neighbour you don't know very well!
Me: 53 H:38 T:20 M:14 BD ILYB etc 10/15, H diagnosed severe depression S 1/16 PA 4/16 H filed 1/17