Leah - I would looveee that!! We would have such a good time and you guys would love my dad in person even more so than what I write about him on here, I seriously am so lucky to have him and I know that even if we butt heads every now and again. He had a few drinks in him this afternoon and was cracking me up.
Sandi and Own - there is so much different advice for particulars but it leads to the same goal - drop the rope, stop caring what he's doing or how what interaction will affect XYZ. I know I am still operating with fear and I'm working on that. I feel I have gotten better with day to day interactions and what not but I know that I am not detached as I should be and I still analyze my actions. I hope that once I have legal representation and a financial plan with the L that I will let go of if I do A will he do B. I am very concerned about him yanking finances and unfortunately that's what drives a lot of my fear and choices.
I don't want him to go tomorrow, I really don't. I know I will have more fun without him. We are tailgating with a bunch of other families that we normally hang with and I know it will infuriate me seeing H there acting like we are a happy little family. I invited my brother to go and haven't heard back from him so I'm hoping that may be my easy way out.
I made sure to be gone tonight when H came to the house. I took the boys to dinner and then we went and hung at a friends house. I stayed there until about 11pm and my dad had text me that H said he was going to a friends so he wasn't here when I got home. I was hoping he was staying out but he came in shortly after me. The boys ended up staying over at their friends. They have such a good time there, I brought them stuff to make ice cream sundaes so they were fishing at their lake and swimming. They were having a blast. The parents are awesome too, they know a bit about what's going on and check on me every day and offer to take the boys constantly. My dad said the one thing I should be super thankful for is the huge support system I have. Which is very true and I am very appreciative. Everyone rallies behind the boys and I.
And Go figure tonight he comes in to say goodnight to me
