Well, I did not think to tell her that but I am sure she will want to see my photos and there is a photo of Dotto, Acorn, Scott and I at Cheers so I am sure she will pick up on that plus she already knows that I was going out with friends on Saturday night.
Thanks for asking, ODGA - she's doing better now that she's actually swallowing her meds. This will be a long road but I can see she is starting to understand what it is. Doesn't mean she's always able to fight it, but she knows what it is.
I went to C's today to gather up some of the things that were still there - got there around 9:15. C was working on getting some numbers together for a meeting later with a prospective buyer for her business. We started by going through each room and making a list of things that were still there. Started in the kitchen and went through everything As I wrote down items I noticed that she was getting closer to me. After the kitchen we went into the living room and after discussing a few items she was very close to me and she started to give me a hug. Without thinking I backed away 1/2 step. C responded immediately with an "uh oh" and backed away herself. Then it seemed that she could not look at me and she went into the kitchen. After a few seconds she came back more composed and we finished listing items in the living room. The upstairs office was next and then we went to to the guest room. While discussing my bedroom suit that is still there, she came over to me and said that I had to give her a hug and as I was responding with "sure", she wrapped her arms around my waist for a big hug. The next room was the master bedroom (where she has some of my underware, socks and other things in one of her drawers) We listed a few things and then I asked if she knew of anything else and she said no.
Then went into the master bath but did not notice anything there of mine (However, back in January when I was staying over on some nights, I had put a disposable razor on the razor hanger in the tub right by her razor. It is still there)
We finished going around the house and had quite a list. C then suggested that we go grab a bite and since I had not had breakfast I said that would be great. We went to a Mexican restaurant near by and had a good meal and some good talk. She said that her Dr. was saying that she was going through some changes due to the change of life and the changes in harmones. Then she asked me "you are not getting seriouse with anyone, ... are you?" I told her that I was not planning on getting serious but then when I met her I was not planning on getting serious with anyone. After lunch we went back to the house and she got ready for her meeting with the prospective buyer and I started moving a few things. I then went to the store to get some boxes for packing and when I got back she was upstairs talking with the buyer. I then started cleaning out my things from her downstairs office. (where she spends most of her time and will notice the missing items - like the CD/Radio player) Also a bookcase and a small table.
After the meeting, I asked her about what she thought and we got some sodas and sat down and talked. I told her to trust her gut feeling about them as that was generally right.
After sitting there for awhile, she said she was really tired and that she was going to go back to her room to catch a few z's and then she might feel more human. She told me I could stay on the couch if I was tired or grab a bite or what ever. She also thanked me for talking with her earlier at lunch and that it was good to talk. She also admitted that she had put me though alot. I told her that that was all water under the bridge. I also told her that I know she has been throug alot but that too was water under the bridge and that we should now just move ahead with our lives.
She then laid down and I turned out the light and went back to the living room Even though I was tired I did not sleep any but rather I did some more packing of my things and taking them to the storage shed in back. After her nap we sat on the couch again and talked for almost an hour. Since it was getting late and had been awhile since we ate I suggested that I run to the suppermarket and get a Rotisserie chicken. (thinking a hot meal would make her feel better) She said that she had some left over rice that would go well with that and could fix a salad, so I went to the store and when I got back she was ready with the other things. She seemed to really enjoy eating and said that if I had not done that she likely would only have made a sandwitch.
After dinner we looked at my photos from Boston (yes, she even saw the one of Acorn, Scotty, Dotto and me at Cheers) then I said I had to go.
As we were going out the door she gave me another hug. After the hug as she backed away she said "that was good" We then walked on out to the car and just before I got in I got another good hug.
All in all a very interesting day. What all it means ??? who knows. Maybe she is rethinking her choices??? While I am not waiting around for her to come out of the cave, I will not close the door either. I hope she opens it though, before I lock it.
Odga - keep doing what works. I'd say what you're doing right now (moving forward with your life, meeting new people, going out, taking her at her word by moving your things out) is working - she seems to be having second thoughts. Of course, it would take a LOT more than this to win you back - so don't slip up, just keep doing what you're doing, let her stew in a little more jealousy - it's good for her to feel a little bit of what you had to go through.
Odga, I agre with ellie. Something is working ! But that doesn't mean you should stop doing what you are doing. Stay on track, I think C is having seconds thoughts.
Just keep moving forward, I'm still hoping someday she will catch up to you!
nothing new to report - no contact w/ C since Sunday.
But in thinking back on a few things, I remember that about a week ago she told me that she was proud of me for learning to fly and last Sunday when I was leaving she told me that she was proud of me for doing so well (my business is picking up some) I felt that she not only was referring to my business but to my personal life as well.
Well, I will continue to wait for her to initiate contact and then respond in a friendly way. I guess I need to reset some of my goals - When I am with her she initiates a hug and even a little kiss. Continuing that will be on the list, but an initial contact from her would be nice.
! But that doesn't mean you should stop doing what you are doing. Stay on track, I think C is having seconds thoughts.
