Well, it is really hard to look back at the past years. And some of it is pretty blurry. It's very hard to imagine that it has been almost 3 years now.
Yes, I need to be consistent about my changes in order to be dependable. Something that I know has been a problem.
I think that I can control myself and my illness, something that I haven't believed in the past. However, it is hard and easy to slip up. But I have been feeling better for a longer time period now. But the depression held me back.
The videos were inspiring, thank you! I have been thinking about my posture lately. It has gone from a pretty good posture to a sack of potatoes during the past years and I want to improve it. But also hearing that it could have an psychological effect on top of how other ppl experience me, makes me want to improve it even more. When I was in university, and later in the start of my career, I did try to "fake it till you make it/become it" when it came to posture/confidence etc, and it really worked back then. And I totally get the part about "success does not lead to happiness, the goals are merely increased". No matter how great my accomplishments were in Univerisity/work and grades/awards/promotions I got, I always demanded more of myself.
And I really want to become that man again, the driven man full of happiness, ambition and energy that I used to be. But maybe with less ambition and more happiness/confidence/calm.
Thank you for your help 25, I really appreciate it!
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