That's why i said I want a pitbull not a poodle and why I thought getting more advice/insight from others might be helpful because what one says another one might not have thought about. I'm a pretty intelligent person (except when it comes to following advice haha) and I know there has to be other ways to what I am thinking and being told.
One L also told me nothing matters as far as how he is not involved what he does and doesn't do and if he doesn't pay that FL sides with both parents and will grant 50/50 and the only time 50/50 isn't granted is in terms of physical abuse and neglect. Last time I kept a journal of EVERYTHING and I actually still have everything from last time and was told nothing makes a difference. I may go back to the L I used last time, but the only thing was she was very very expensive and was not very courteous with her billing. We ate through a 5k retainer before even hitting mediation. But she was a free consult so I may go see her again, voice my concerns about billing last time and see what happens because she was good. She's in a different county than I am but also does cases in my county so I don't mind the drive to her.
Anyway, if you have anybody you can recommend that would be AWESOME! I've met with Rice and Peake so far. Rice is older, great huge law firm but he is kind of out of the out for blood mode, just wants to settle and avoid conflict it seemed. Peake was negative nancy that basically H could get everything he wanted and I was screwed, it's too bad because she was funny and I really liked talking to her as a person we had a good time laughing about all the crazy people she meets and that she couldn't believe how stable I appeared with my story. Swain is the one that was a minimum of 750-1000 for the consult so I cancelled that appointment. If there is someone that is only one county over and has privileges here I wouldn't mind driving if he/she was worth it.