Deb - Counselor may be right to some extent - C says that she sences anger from me in my conversations and I told her that I felt some anger comming my way from her too. I suggested that we both may do and say somthings that show anger without meaning to but on the subconscious level. I told C that I did not see any reason for us to not be friends and that even though we were not the exception to the rule of the number of divorces for remarried (50% - 60% for 3rd timers) that we could be the exception and be friends but that we would have to work on it.
She told me that she needed to work on herself for awhile and that she needed to find out "who" she really was, and again referenced that she knew she was in MLC. I also told her that later when she does find out who she is and if I am not really serious about anyone then and she wants to then I would be open to dating again but that she would have to stand in line.
In all last night I got the feeling that she is beginning to get the idea that I may not always be there for her. I did set up a dinner "date" [don't know what else to call getting together w/ a friend] for next Tuesday night - night before I go to Boston for a week, the trip she really wanted to go with me on.
mementos - Bear with me, I love you is gone? "I love you, Darling" is still stuck to the top of her coffee maker. [I did tell her last night that one of my goals was to make coffee for a special someone again, and reminded her of a photo I took of her at the Bed & Breakfast in November of her in Bed with a cup of coffee that I had brought to her, and we talked a little about that trip. I told her that it was good that we had some good memories to end things with rather than with fighting and bad thoughts]; the tea bag I gave her from the Bed & Breakfast is now in the window seal over the kitchen sink.
I did not get to check on any other mementos but she did say that she had checked out my personal web page and commented on a photo she took of me the day of our D - the phrase under the photo was "Me, after a really hard day, but looking to the future". Since very few other peopl have the web page address I can tell from the counter that some one has checked it and it usually goes up a notch right after we talk so I suspected that my web page visitor was her.
"I love you, Darling" is still stuck to the top of her coffee maker. [I did tell her last night that one of my goals was to make coffee for a special someone again, and reminded her of a photo I took of her at the Bed & Breakfast in November of her in Bed with a cup of coffee that I had brought to her, and we talked a little about that trip. I told her that it was good that we had some good memories to end things with rather than with fighting and bad thoughts]; the tea bag I gave her from the Bed & Breakfast is now in the window seal over the kitchen sink.
