The two L I have met with were pretty doomsday, as in basically H has the upper hand, he can do whatever he wants and not pay a dime, still come and go as he pleases, he can get 50/50 custody and not pay a cent, I probably won't get much alimony, etc etc.
It sends me for a tailspin after I meet with them just because he makes a lot of money and I frankly haven't had a paycheck since before the baby.
I will continue to make consults that are free or low cost... I was doing this to get as much advice/input because I believe 2 is better than 1, and also because then its a conflict if H were to want to use someone I already met with to represent him.
So, I'll look into filing for support and custody, but I don't think I will file for D. It's not where I'm at in this moment, that very well may change. I get my student loan money the second or third week of August so depending on the cost it may have to wait until then if they want a retainer paid for filing those requests vs filing D.
I'm also thinking of telling H I probably won't be continuing this next semester in school, that I'm going to take some time off to focus on the kids and to be able to work (since he is soo short on money). Just because I have a feeling he's waiting for me to be making the big bucks after I graduate and sit for boards in December. Just to throw a wrench in his plans. I don't really plan on doing that, unless my professor fails me eek. But he doesn't have to know everything
On a funny note, just because it makes me laugh, I got a message from a strange number yesterday in between seeing patients. It was a message that I guess MIL had added H and I to a group message and sent a long letter starting with Dear T and H, and going on about how her life is falling apart, her 'baby' sister is cutting her out of her life because of a failed business investment, that she is devastated, strugglign with the loss, no more phone calls, family gatherings, holidays, shes losing her rock, etc, etc. to please pray for her to pull herself together, that she has been a wreck and unable to reach out to either of us. that she really needs support right now and a bunch of other stuff.
I read it and just laughed. Gosh that sounds cold of me, but seriously. I was half tempted to give her the response she gave about me with H, you know your sister deserves to be happy and she just doesn't love you anymore. Instead I said I'm sorry to hear that.
I am not super religious but I feel like God put a letter in my path today. I was searching for the baby's social and found a letter I wrote to myself July 19, 2014 *during the last BD*
It was something I was writing to H, but had kept it to myself just to relieve my feelings... I felt like it was something I could have written just yesterday. How odd things are.
