Glad you got away for a bit. It's nice to have that mental break sometimes. I hate that FF's new girlfriend is hitting you so hard, but you deserve SO much better. You know, I totally get it though. I wouldn't go back to my ex-husband if he was the last man on earth and he offered me 10 million dollars, but the first time I saw a pic of him and his new gf (now wife), I just about lost my mind. It hurts and brings up all sorts of insecurities in ourselves, so I totally understand your reaction. I think it's good that you blocked them both from all your social media. Just focus on you and don't worry about FF. He's not anywhere good enough for you!
Hi Dawn!
I think it hit me so hard because I know she is the perfect match and she can give him what I can't. I know how completely happy he must be with a younger woman who is already in with the family. It is definitely triggering my insecurities. Especially when EVERYONE I have dated ended up with someone 5 minutes after me, or even during me, and most of those women were people they already knew. I have no clue why they even bothered with me.
I guess I am feeling like he must be sitting there saying "this was the right decision, I am happier now than I could be with Ginger" and he might very well be saying that. And I can see why. I simply cannot offer him what she can. (although I have my own place and they both live with their parents, lol).
I know he is way better off with her, but seeing them together just stinks. It's not that who I am isn't worth, I am just not what he needs at all.
Eh, I really do have bigger fish to fry. Like my A hole of an ex, going to the ortho today to find out the plan, finishing school, getting as much done as I possible can around the house before surgery happens, while I can't really do too much as it is. And, of course, cheering on my volleyball team, haha!
