UR, You were very missed this weekend. I really can't wait to go east the crap out of Brooklyn!!
I love love love when you drop by on my little journal here. I always said I should just put it on paper, but feedback really helps me sort through my feelings and thoughts.
Yes, we definitely share the trait of poking something that hurts and saying "ouch, that hurts when I do that". To me, it is kind of a desensitation. I hope that if I keep poking at it, I won't feel it anymore. I remember when I first saw wedding pics of exH and OWW FB I would just stare until I felt nothing anymore. I wanted to do that with FF, but, really, why? I never have to him again. I don't have to see her. I am instead using everything I can now to not see them. I really wish I could unsee the picture because it haunts me.
Life is kind of sucking right now. But I know all the good I have and I am trying to focus there and get stuff handled. I am so sorry you are struggling too and I'll remind you every day I am here for you.
I hope when I am ready, that someone special is one that sees me as the only option for him. I have a feeling if it does happen, he will be amazing and he doesn't want to imagine his life with anyone but me.
We really are survivors. Thank you for reminding me. I have been feeling like I am going backwards or it's like groundhog day with the same cycle repeating itself. I want to leap forward as soon as my knee lets me, lol.
