Here again part 10

[25yearsmlc]

[quote=T384]Oh geez I didn't even realize there was a second page when I just replied to Trains post, thank you everyone!

Ginger- we have kept separate accounts since last BD, we have a joint account we use for bills but we both just put money in there as needed.

I acknowledged the fear in my previous post to train and what you said Cadence is unfortunately spot on. I fear the permanence.

I think I look at last time and just think can't you stop this before it gets too far and it's forever and I can't ever forgive you. Before you do so much damage you won't or can't come back.

if that^^^ "too much damage" has not already happened (and I think your fears prevent you from seeing the full extent of the wounds, - see Blu's thread sometime -)


you somehow think that scrambling to keep him & "save the m" and not dropping the rope, helps you or the m cause.

And I DO NOT GET THAT^^^. Dropping the rope helps you more than anything you have done, to save the m OR to leave it & move forward.


The movie Swingers has a part you should read

Check this out

From Swingers the Movie

Mike:
Okay, so what if I don't want to give up on her?

Rob:
You don't call.

Mike:
But you said I don't call if I wanted to give up on her.

Rob:
Right.

Mike:
So I don't call either way?

Rob:
Right.

Mike:
So what's the difference?

Rob:
There is no difference right now. See, Mike, the only difference between giving up and not giving up is if you take her back when she wants to come back. But you can't do anything to make her want to come back. In fact, you can only do stuff to make her not want to come back.

Mike:
So the only difference is if I forget about her or just pretend to forget about her?

Rob:
Right.

Mike:
Well that [censored].

Rob:
Yeah, it [censored].

Mike:
So it's just like a retroactive decision, then? I mean I could, like, forget about her and then when she comes back make like I just pretended to forget about her?

Rob:
Right. Although probably more likely the opposite.

Mike:
What do you mean?

Rob:
I mean at first you're going to pretend to forget about her, you'll not call her, I don't know, whatever... but then eventually, you really will forget about her.

Mike:
Well what if she comes back first?

Rob:
Mmmm... see, that's the thing, is somehow they know not to come back until you really forget.

Mike:
There's the rub.

Rob:
There's the rub.


T3

start hearing us, or your head will hurt from beating it against the wall.

I mean that as kindly as i can.

you have so much fear, you won't let go and you are in your own way