Oh geez I didn't even realize there was a second page when I just replied to Trains post, thank you everyone!
Ginger- we have kept separate accounts since last BD, we have a joint account we use for bills but we both just put money in there as needed.
Hi Tobias- thanks for stopping by. Unfortunately my professors do not care, suck it up butter cup. But I will not let this stop me from graduating. I have 5 months left! I wish more professors were as understanding as you.
Cadence and 25 - yes he did that last time but I have a separate account and he makes all the money now anyway and pays majority of all household bills so that's it an issue. Fortunately and unfortunately.
I acknowledged the fear in my previous post to train and what you said Cadence is unfortunately spot on. I fear the permanence. I think I look at last time and just think can't you stop this before it gets too far and it's forever and I can't ever forgive you. Before you do so much damage you won't or can't come back. Besides the financial fear. That's the other fear.
And 25 he's not worth it right now but he was .. the other man was.
Ugh. I am getting there you guys. .. I know I suck at this. I feel like a kid at toys r us kicking and screaming being drug out of the store.
AFTER doing what's best for the kids my concern is what's going to save my M. I need to get out of that mindset. I feel like I'm getting there and getting better and closer toward it then something happens (talking to L was the case today) and I'm back worrying about how to get H to wake up.
I feel like everyone here doesn't think he will ever wake up. It stings. I know the truth stings.
I am not going to file for D as of this moment. But I am going to file for financial and custody support. If it is recommended by the next L I meet with. I'm trying to get as many opinions and insight as possible.
Sandi- if I knew the latter was the case That he just doesn't love me I would probably not have hung on like I am just hoping he was in a fog and that was the reason for his behavior and words and that there was HOPE he might come out of it.
Hope this all makes sense. I've had a terrible migraine since yesterday and am just getting home from school. Going to bed early tonight if the baby lets me.
