Next phase: Divorce and Acceptance

[Pax_luv]

Thanks Coly, for the words of encouragement. Oyyyy it is a process.

I also wish there was a way to share some of these things... Like my doggy you-tube video (which doesn't exist, but maybe it should). We get so invested in each other's lives, it would be nice to have that deeper connection. On the other hand I totally respect and appreciate the anonymity.

With that, I just want to share something kind of funny, kind of not so funny. I NEED to get my spending in check. I think right at this moment, I'm worse than the MLCer. It feels like I'm dumping money on tons of fun things, but I need to whip myself back into shape. Starting right this very second. I'm telling you all so you can help keep me accountable!

My big problem right now is clothes. Gah- so many clothes! As you know I've been working out religiously since January so needless to say a lot of my clothes don't fit the same or are just too big in general. I've been slowly getting new things that fit better but havent gotten rid of the old clothes since my weight still fluctuates with my misc muscle gains and losses.

So, on top of work clothes, I've also been investing in quality workout clothes because I now realize what the difference is between regular work out clothes and quality clothes. That sounds sooooo pretentious, but it makes a big difference. I don't buy lululemon... That's far too rich for my blood, but I'm spending more than i usually would. On top of that, since I work out 2 times a day... I need double the wardrobe and this includes socks, sports bras, tops and bottoms. Eesh!

And then on top of that.... With my new dating life, I also bought some cute clothes for going out.

And then at the same time, since I do have a new body, I've sexed up my wardrobe a bit in the pajama department, and even with the work clothes too. Not too revealing or sexy, but enough to feel confident. You know, pencil skirts, heels, etc.

So, yeah, it is a new PAX, I just wish she wasn't this expensive especially when my lawyer bill last month was 3,000. Ouch.

So the goal on Saturday is to get back on the konmari method and let some of those objects go that don't being me joy or make my butt look good haha.
The goal will be at least one full garbage bag stuffed to give to good will. Hopefully, I exceed that goal.

Meh... Just sharing real life. $$$$