What's really funny is after I wrote that and submitted it I was annoyed just re reading it. I felt like why. Did I just waste my time and theirs reading this GARBAGE and even more so why did I engage in this conversation for as long as I did.
I will say this though he started saying you know your dad and I talked and he said everything would be fine we would all be grown adults and do things for the boys but it's pretty odd he had it made in his mind I had someone else. I can only imagine how you're telling everyone that even though you haven't mentioned it in in awhile.
I said H -- that is not how life is going to be and I know for a fact that's not what my dad said. He was being nice as was I because we were both hoping you would get your sh!t together and that this was just a little mini freak out you were having. I also said you know why my dad says you have someone else it's not because of me. He said it's because he's a man and what HUSBAND AND FATHER would leave a Newborn? I said there is absolutely no excuse. It's not like I'm a drug addict, a cheater, or like my dad said I don't have the whole squad of the Harlem globe trotters lined up LOL so really there is no excuse for what you're doing.
But ya like I said... I read that post and was annoyed with myself. Story of my life. I definitely feel better. I don't know why I felt the need to validate because I guess I'm just further fueling his fire. I happily took his money last night while he had his sourpuss on and said thanks with a big smile and went out the door.
So ya moral of the story is I will do more of STFU less talk more action.
Plus as you all know he's making more than enough to cover our expenses. I have the login to his payroll account ... I mean really with everything I know, if he knew , he would have a heart attack. I just haven't shown ANY of my cards, yet
Which is why I haven't mentioned OW and the texting. I'm going to let it simmer for a bit because I don't want to do it out of emotion. Plus he can continue to dig himself a deeper hole.
And 25 I'm protecting myself as best I can with fair legal advice. That's the main reason I'm not showing my cards. I'm letting him think I'm as dumb as he thinks I am. I mean to this day he doesn't think I check the phone records. He really thinks I'm dumb. My dad said it's like leading the animal to the slaughter house. I can't tip him off until I have everything ready to go.
And thanks Train for the kind words. I felt great this weekend. I did have a small cry yesterday but it was short and I was alone. The crying is spacing out to every few days and not asking very long which is a huge improvement haha.
I did remind him To not feel he's needed at the house. He was more than welcome to come by see the boys and be on his way. Let's see if he follows my advice this week.
