Trying to detach from WTF world

[Coconut]

For me it took a year to really accept my part in the failure of M... Sure, I thought about things I did to participate in the failure before, but I always would include the "but I only did that because she...".

It really hit me hard when I "got it".. When I realized what I did, or didn't do, in my M (without trying to attach reasons I did it). When I finally saw it for what my part was, it made me feel sad and to be honest a little disgusted at myself.

Several times I said to my wife that if she wasn't happy in our M, then she should of done something to work on it or end it, instead of having an A. The day I really understood my part, I realized that I wasn't happy and I too didn't do anything to fix it or end it, instead I further distanced myself from my spouse.