Anyone else struggle with looking honestly at their part of the M vs feeling love for their H and his part vs feeling angry as hell at how their H has treated them?
yes ^^^^
huge pieces of this struggle are
1) the gross injustice of it, AND the irony/insanity that h sees himself as the hero & me as the villain,
2) what was real/fake, and when?
3) how much cognitive dissonance/dishonesty existed on the spouse's part,
4) me trying to improve as a person "anyhow",
5) while also secretly hoping to win the "pick me" dance, that we simultaneously know we should not have to compete in!!
6) not waiting around for them to "get it/see the light/do the right thing" and accepting that for the foreseeable future, my h $ucks as a father and is gone as my h.
7) learning to embrace the upsides of the situation and discovering what I - 25 - want in life. Feeling better, too. How?
Detachment is -for me - the one thing that consistently seems to increase my happiness levels.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
