Trip to NJ to see family was pretty good. I had some bad moments (thinking about how D and I were there by ourselves, which was New and Different). I did a LOT of walking (went for a ~3 mile walk every evening) which helped with stress and made me feel good physically). GF and I talked a LOT in the evenings, she came on my walks via phone.
I haven't seen D since we got back from NJ. She's been with her mother since last Sunday. I won't see her until tomorrow evening. I'm missing her like crazy, but it seemed fair to me that STBXW got some time with her like that (our parenting plan says we each get two whole non-contiguous weeks every summer, so I'm going to have to get used to this anyway) so I told her to keep D through her (STBXW's) birthday, which is today.
Divorce should be final a week from tomorrow. STBXW is demanding things from me. I'm being called a liar, I'm being treated like I'm screwing her over (I'm not). I'm pretty sure it's just an attempt to manipulate me some more. I can't wait for the legal part to be over.
Played some soccer yesterday, the heat was awful and I felt like I wanted to die. Took me a few hours after I finished playing before I felt "ok."
Things with GF are going great. She actually came with me to soccer (though she didn't play... pretty sure that's not on her agenda).
D called me in tears a few minutes ago (probably why I'm writing this now) saying she missed me and wanted me to come pick her up tonight, which I obviously can't do since it's STBXW's birthday. She's cried a lot when I've talked to her over the last week. A couple of times, I've heard her mother yelling at her for it. I Don't think she treats our child well, and it breaks my heart.
