Coly....I hope you know that you are doing much better then you were. This process takes time, and if you are as much like me as I think you are, this process definitely isn't going fast enough
This statement by Blu is so on point:
In the beginning we are so hurt, we just want them back. When we have them back, we are forced to look at who they are and what they did, so naturally we will question if we want them at all.
I can honestly say that I will never be the same person as I was before all of this CRAP happened....but I don't think that is a bad thing. Now I know what I am willing to put up with, and what I'm not willing to put up with from others. My H definitely knows he cant pull anymore BS with me. Sometimes I have days where I think "do I really want him in my life as bad as I think I do?"..... still trying to figure that out
You will get there one day too Coly.....I can feel it
