Hello...can you hear me?

[Georgiabelle]

Thanks for stopping by everyone. I hear you. I do and it's something I'm
Diggging into as best I can right now.

Started new job. Love it. Has been crazy and had some technical delays/computer malfunctions on their end so I had some challenges getting set up. X Mr.GB graciously offered to help as this is his forte. I gladly accepted and he said afterwards "let's get dinner. It will be fun."

I was a hint nervous at first. However, I said "f that. I had 3 kids with the man. I took no pain medication after having all 4 wisdoms teeth out. I can do this." He has broken up with gf. After telling me some stuff about her life, I realized it was Like a car crash with those 2. I listened and said that she certainly had some challenges to overcome growing up (I. Can't. Even. Put. Into. Words). He was funny, very polite (took my work bag to car and put in trunk for me as I was wearing 5 inch heels as I had been in meetings all day), and seemed sad. Not about he. Just sad in general. A shell of the man I used to know. Still funny and sensitive but....truly different on a profound level. However, not one to let grass grow, he's flying out to meet some woman he works with but has never met in person-just Skype and VC. He said, "I just don't see how this one can work?" Please keep in mind he broke up with the gf 3 days before. :-) I said, "I'm sure you will figure it out." He then suggested "we" all move across the country. He paid. It was fun. Not awkward but odd. And he said at one point, "I don't see how you put up with me. I was exhausting." I smiled and said , "yes. We are who we are though right?" The universe kept giving me signs a day of meeting was coming and it was good. He asked about NG but I didn't discuss. Said he's a good guy and he said kids really like him. For the record, NG has really been wearing on me a bit lately. I empathize but his constant "I'm not happy with my life, career, money situation is just not something I want to expend much energy on. I understand-I do. However, if you want something to change then you have to change it. Not interested in mothering anyone but my kids. I did that in my marriage and that was a big old nope.

Anyway, summer has been busy. I feel pretty good. Perpetual motion and I'm taking it one day at a time.

Hugs to all.