25 - everything seems cloudy to me. I think because I'm overwhelmed. I believe H was the man I needed. But I don't know what happens that he turns into this person
Everyone that knows us says he will regret it and that you don't put your own happiness ahead of the kids and you don't leave when you have a newborn.
I'm feeling super discouraged today. H still continues to text with boss daughter. Now he's talking on the phone an hour a day with an ex from prior to we met. She lives far away but they never talk and haven't seen each other since before we met 13 years ago. She's divorced with 3 kids... I just think what great advice he's getting from all these people that don't know me us or our family. They only know the lies he tells. He's so easily influenced and just looks to People like this to make him feel justified in his decision. Same crap as last time...
I am struggling with my feelings and like if what I'm doing is the right course of action.
He continues to remove himself further and further away as I have distanced myself. He went from at least asking about my day asking about the baby and thanking me when I would have the kids call him to stone cold silence. Like not a word. No communication AT ALL. it's like he's a mute in the house and when he's not here there is no text communication. It's now where he won't even call my phone to talk to the boys. He sent me a text last night 'have boys call if awake'
Like he can't even make full sentences.
I just feel like I'm pushing him further away.
Today is one of my down days. I recognize that.... trying to handle it and switch it around. The office is slow today so too much time to think.
