Have been on vacation by myself this week. Done a lot of walking, sightseeing, eating. Also been shopping a little bit for D and seen 2 musicals (usually do not do either of it) and had a great time overall. Been journaling every day, and also writing down thoughts of our M, what to do going forward, about my illness etc.
Been trying to get rest/relaxation/meditation daily and it worked ok. I have been really tired at times, especially when I have visited museums (lots of ppl and noise). Then I've been trying to find a café or something similar to sit and journal or just closing my eyes for minute. I have been eager to get going and start the day every day which means a lot to me.
I have felt lonely of course on occasion, but not all the time. Thought about NC this week and wait to contact D until Sunday when she will be with me. However, my wife broke that today to ask about a major accident in my hometown hoping that I did not know anyone injured. I thanked her for caring and telling her i did not know anyone considering what I knew at that moment. Think I had a more caring tone than hers that were more business-like. Was this wrong of me or am I just over-analyzing?
I will write soon again!
H-30s W-30s M-5 T-10 D4 ILYBNILWY/BD-May/17 W moves out-May/17 D filed-May/17 House sold, move to apartment-Aug/17 D going through-Jan/18?
