Finding my way in the dark - Part 2

[Holding]

So I'm thinking about how I feel about this. Honestly, I'm numb. I feel like my heart has been slowly breaking 2.5 months now, and I wonder if there's anything left to break. The only emotions I have right now are anger and resolve.

I feel like I'm ready for this, but I wonder if that's the anger talking.

Part of me wonders if, since I confronted W about the OM, she will hit rock bottom. That it will make her really realize what she's gotten herself into, and that I know about it. But that is such a LOOOONG shot at this point. And I'm not sure I want to go back.

At some point during the conversation, I told her that I didn't think D was the solution to our problems, but I respect her opinion. She asked what the solution was. I said I didn't know, but I don't think it's divorce.