Not sure if anyone of you all have ever felt like this. But a little after midnight last night, I just suddenly had this overwhelming feeling of guilt in regards to my MR. Just had these thoughts and feelings that it was all my fault for not being able to keep it all together. Everything was going fine with me, but that feeling came out of nowhere and lasted about 10 minutes. Everything was back to normal after that. But I have no idea what brought that on. Has this happened to anyone else?
yes it has happened. On occasion it brings me to my knees with despairing regrets
other times I have that sick feeling and so I use a free meditation app called "insight timer" on my phone, with some shorter meditations if it's like 4am.
It helps if these horrific moments are in the middle of the night or if they wake you up. (And I'm not someone who meditates otherwise, so I'm pleasantly surprised at how helpful it is. I may take up meditation given the usefulness.)
Otherwise it's sort of all about cognitive behavioral talk therapy (where we remind ourselves that we did not force our spouses to go for an adventure on the tundra, again- or cheat -or gamble, or whatever THEY CHOSE to do...
and or
we have to forgive ourselves for our failings - and try to give ourselves a clean slate, which God does all the time.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
