Sorry to hear that your D will be finalized next week. No amount of words will offer much comfort or even help with the panic attacks. D often feels like a death and in many aspects it is.
Are you seeing anyone for the panic attacks or taking any medication for them?
How are the GAL activities going in your new location? Any new co-workers that would be interested in hanging out?
I know dating doesn't sound right just yet, but some day someone will come along and you will know. Hell, it might even be your W. Use this time to heal and focus your energy on yourself so when that day comes, no matter who it is, they will recognize all that you have to offer.
I know it s**** at times, but hang in there. Things will get better.
M: 37 W: 36 T: 16 M: 11 D2: 8,3 PA: 2015 WAW: 2016 W Filed: 2017 2/07/2017 W officially dating OM2