I had that conversation and she called that blackmail.
Also she CLAIMS that the inappropriate element has stopped and is now a 'regular' friendship. I find that hard to believe but at the same time there were legitimate concerns about me that I need to work on.
I know she needs to move out. But I am terrified that this will solidify her decision that she is better off alone and stay in that fog. But then the time we DO spent together is usually good.
I just feel I am damned if i do and damned if I don't. And as to what is easier on me? I don't even know.
Everything she is asking from me in terms of what she needs from me is what a M is about: intimacy, communication. She talks about the future (and then catches herself and says she is scared because she doesn't know what will happen). It's like she wants to go for it and then gets scared and thinks of all the times it went wrong in the past.
I am terrified to leave next weekend but I know I need to go.
