I am super duper depressed. I just cried in my bed last night. I am in pain, can barely get around, have no help, except for my beautiful amazing child who did all she could for me yesterday. I was indoor cycling sunday and I was out of breath, my whole body was working, but it felt SO GOOD. My exercise reminds me I am alive, that I can do anything. When I exercise, I tell myself how amazing my body is (inside). Now, I can't even get up my stairs. it's my GAL. For two hours on Monday nights I first play with my team and it's honestly like the only time nothing else going on in my life is on my mind. Then I take an hour and have drinks with my team, getting to know new people, and again, nothing else on my mind.
Now? My ex is probably going to play on my team! How ironic, huh? I'll be sitting there watching him play with my people next Monday.
I'll be really honest, I wished FF was there so bad last night. He was comfortable around my house, always helpful to me, and he would have really taken care of me. Sometimes I feel like him being there was really only a dream and it wasn't reality. Nothing makes you realize how alone you are when you are injured and you've got no one. Pity party, I know.
Juju, go ahead and say something to one of those guys! I have given my unsolicited advice to 3 guys. One didn't take it well. The other two were genuinely appreciative. And this on started a conversation which I hope is leading to a date.
Online dating is like shopping according to reading labels on a package.
Tonight I have an apt with a psychic. My D's friends mom went to this woman twice and she was completely on point so I decided to make an appt. She is really in demand, I have waited over a month.
