Since my last update nothing much has happened, the contact has become non-existent and when she does initiate contact it's usually just a "hello" as she picks the boys up from me.
When it's my turn to have the boys stay over WW now facetimes them I have gotten into a routine where I isolate them when this happens. So far I have seen no improvement with her wanting to pursue but it is still relatively early, I am slowly adjusting to the fact that our M will more than likely not R and am learning to adapt to the situation.
Getting out more and exercising daily is helping and the thoughts are becoming less and less. It's becoming a fight me wanting to continue to work on my M or just to cut it loose and concentrate on the boys and me BUT I'm not a quitter and not fighting for my M feels like quitting...
33. Do not give up no matter how dark it is or how bad you feel. Again I re-read this and say to myself "Mark give it another year". I'm not interested in another R as I still deeply L my WW so can continue to detach, work on myself and get out more whilst being a great father and this is what I intend to do.
I'd like to ask for input from other's that have looked at themselves to see what made the M turn bad and what they did to improve it/them. I feel now that I have all this free time I should be looking at the core problem with me and my R with the WW and continue to improve me for my next chapter whether with my W or someone else.
With patience and focus I know either way I'll come out stronger and knowing that limerence MUST come to and end can stand back and watch their R go down the pan.
Take care all.
Mark.
DR'ing started March 2017
Don't blow the last bridge up from fantasy island, act "as if".
