A WW? (8)

[lt0402]

Well, about 3 weeks into us moving into separate places. We continue to cycle D between us every couple days. D seems to be happy and stable right now. Extremely happy that she's, at least outwardly, holding up ok.

D and I have made the apartment into an excellent home. It feels warm and comfortable. We have a good time when she's here and I'm having a great summer with her so far. When she's not here, I'm trying to be in this place as little as possible. Been out with friends, family, and even just myself. Did a camping trip last weekend, as D was with W, and that was amazing. Really didn't see anyone else and had a ton of space to myself. Got some fishing in, though I caught nothing! Did some hiking around and exploring. And really just let my mind wander wherever it wanted too. Was surprised that it didn't dwell on the past. Guessing that's progress.

STBX has really been odd. She's gone from trying to start arguments, to being pleasant, to walking around in just a towel when I've come over to get D. I just let it all roll off. She texts me a lot still about D, or some bill, or some other non R thing. Trying to parse those and respond to what's important and ignore the other stuff that's just noise. I'm wondering how we will get to a good coparenting R as I don't really see a great path to that at the current moment. She still harbors such resentment and anger. Her circus, but I know we need to be on the same page with respect to D. I said I was done when we physically split and I meant it. I just cannot be her whipping boy anymore. I deserve so much better than that and I realize that now. I let her kick the crap out of me for the last year. Worked my butt off and killed a part of my soul trying to fix things and hold together my family. Her walking out the door was the end of it for me and I'm ok with that.

I'm also finding there are a lot of quality women out there. I'm by no means looking for or ready to date, but my eyes are more open to positive interactions with the women I run into. Still awaiting feedback from stbx on the S agreement too, as she's said nothing about it since I gave it to her a month ago.

D is having a friend over for a sleepover tonight. Trying to keep things normal for her and I believe I'm succeeding for the most part. Makes me happy every time I see that kid. She is my rock and my lighthouse in the storm. Heading to bed but just wanted to toss out a quick update. Thanks to you all, as always!