Here again part 10

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Maybell, the comments people post on the ... blog? If that's what you're referring to I believe many of them post here and/or there are so many people that get put through the same crap.

Do you all just think I should just file for D?


Ownit the L I spoke with stated that if I didn't want to file for divorce we could file for support/visitation/etc which is what I was talking about. She just said that it would take a minimum of 90-120 days to get a hearing.


I just have a burning thought/question... is he in a sane mindset and is just over this M? That he is rational, not in an A whether it be PA/EA and this is truly just what he wants which is why he thinks we can be friendly?

My dad said he didn't say much except he did say he wanted to keep the boats here this way we could all still go out as a family etc. My dad told him absolutely not.

I just wonder that because those of you who remember last time remember how terrible he was to me... wouldn't come to the house if I was here, wouldn't answer the phone if I called, etc.

I know my course is still the same... I'm just wondering.

I'm just rambling I know... I do have a reason for this post... I think

As you all know I do not text H... I haven't heard from him today, not surprising but no clue on if he is planning on coming here. He had been texting me when he was on his way home from work and used to ask if I wanted him to stay the night. The last week he has stopped asking and stopped telling me he is on his way and just shows up as he pleases at whatever time he pleases... I already have the boys showered, dinner fed, laundry done, and the baby just went down (he usually sleeps from 8-10:30 and then is awake until about 1230am his schedule is very confused), so he really comes here to shower and be on the couch. Long story short there is a soccer tournament this weekend. This is the first soccer event since he moved out. It will be pretty awkward with all the families there that we normally hang out with as couples/with the kids and nobody knows what's going on. Point being, do I ride with H to the tournament? It is about an hour away. I can load the car and pack everyone myself, I just have to get up super early and make sure everything is ready but I'm capable of doing it alone. However, I believe he will be coming here to stay the night if he continues coming here nightly as he has. Do I suggest we drive separate? Just not sure what I should be doing.

Also, next Saturday there is an international soccer match we bought tickets for back in March for the 5 of us... Do I tell H it isn't a good idea that he goes? It was going to be H, the boys, I and my dad. I can get rid of H's ticket (they were like 100/pp) so I imagine it won't be hard to find someone to go... just not sure how to handle these things?

These are not questions that someone who has DTR should be asking - I believe I know the answers .... I just know I am not going to like the outcome of them... he is going to start treating me like he did last time, being a huge you know what.