ILYBINILWY - OW - what to do next 2

[Holding]

You do seem to be going through a rough spot. As a master overthinker myself, I knows it when I sees it!

You kicked H out, and now you want him to move back in, without any progress on his part. I totally understand you want to protect your kids. But you're breaking your own boundary by having him move back in. Helping S settle in school, and avoiding having "the talk" with the kids for now, isn't a really good reason to torture yourself.

The funeral thing seems like it'll really stress you out. You won't be a couple there - you'll be going with a memory of him, while the new unrecognizable him mocks that memory.