Own I am big time. Actually my biggest fear now is that it might be worse if he comes back broken and still undecided or confused... so now I am in control of my day and destiny ...so I see today is good , maybe if he turns back it will not so why live for something now sure and waste today .


M 45 H 45
D1 12 D2 9
BD 04/14
Living two different state
Not officially separated