Boston Dad in need of Help

[Teppo]

I appreciate everyone's feedback on how my W and I should tell our son about the divorce. Sometimes I feel like she's getting off too easy considering that she initiated the divorce and is having an EA. I'll say this until I'm blue in the face, I know I've messed up and contributed to our failed marriage. I've said this to my W on a few occasions during our counseling sessions, but she has yet to acknowledge her shortcomings and the EA.

I have to vent, but this is so damn hard! I'm detaching, GALing, and spending my free time with my boy. Yet, it's so sad to deal with the pain and the inevitable pain that my son is going to experience when his Daddy isn't there to wake him up in the morning for school or to tuck him into bed. I know I'll get at least 50% custody, but it won't be the same. I already miss my family and it kills me to think about it. I can barley work and the sadness is almost too much to bear sometimes. I keep a positive and optimistic appearance around my W and son, but the play acting is wearing on me. Thanks for reading.