Thanks Wsh, I appreciate you stopping by! I wouldn't go as far as to say I can have her back. I would say its 50/50 right now. Her hot and cold has leveled off quite a bit and she is saying a divorce is scaring her a lot. I can see that she is now thinking about the reality of the situation vs being gung ho about her OM and divorcing me in the beginning. She isn't remorseful yet but I think its coming.
Also, I don't think I'm opposed to R with W. I guess after I'm finally getting some confidence back and a clear head, thinking about all that damage is starting to bother me. Very frustrating. Her taking a year away from me angers me a bit.
I'm willing to hang on a little bit more though. Our W anniversary is 9/18 and they are supposed to go on a 7 day cruise then. I'm internalizing that as my deadline. I think if they go on that I'll be done. I wont tell her this though. Pressure is bad, especially with her.
M 1.5 years, her affair was before 1 year T 7 Years