By the grace of God

[mleigh4]

I forgot to share some of the personal feelings I felt after my date.

To recap, 4 years post BD, first date.

I was sitting in the restaurant having conversation, and a few times, wished I was there with H. OLD H. The man I loved so much, where was he? A few times during that night, it hit me, I am out with a total stranger. Where was my H? How did we get here? I will admit, it brought up many emotions.

In the first couple of days after, I almost reached out to H, I almost invited him to join us to the beach house vacation....but I knew from experience....don't react on emotions. And I am so glad I didn't react because it didn't take long for reality to clear the fog.

The reality is that my H is a different person and no longer the person I fell in love with. Ugh that reality can still hurt.

Hugs to you all
M