If we were able to look in on that MC session where you "lost it", what we see you doing? Do you scream, pace around, throw things, curse, threaten, try to punch something? What be the main thing we saw that told us you had lost it.
As for as you considering an open M, have you ever been closely associated with the practice? I'm wondering if this more accommodation for your W.
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Because I felt she was trying to feel the desire to work on our M again.
Based on something she said or did that caused you to feel this way?
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Because I was hoping that her going through MC and hearing C say that contact with OM is not a good idea and how it's about what we both put into the relationship that this would make W realize that we have a long hard road ahead of us but that the longer OM is involved the harder it will be.
Has the MC made it clear........or have you been disappointed the MC didn't express enough of what you wanted your W to hear? From the quote above, have you been disappointed in the MC or your W's response?
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Because I trust my W when she says OM and her are friends.
But I thought you snooped and discovered they were more than friends.
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Because I know I need patience and also need to sin for my failures as a H.
Do you feel your failures as a H, justifies your W's affair?
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Because I don't want to end things even though I know they should be ended because of financial reasons beyond emotional reasons.
Could you explain what you mean, please?
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Because I see progress and every step forward I want it to be a larger step.
Can give one of the ways it has progressed?
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Because I think her talking to OM might make it easier on her.
I don't want to sound rude, however, this line of thinking is setting you up for something bad. You must not accommodate her EA/PA, nor a so-called "friendship" with OM.
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Because I don't know if I can trust her saying nice things about me while also saying she doesn't know yet.
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Because she changed wanting to go to MC because of wanting to end things peacefully to maybe wanting to see if she can feel she wants to work on it.
Okay
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Because I would hate knowing I am a failure at 40 with no kids and pretty much sacrificing that. I was okay not having kids because she didn't want kids but now I wonder if I made the right choice
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So, you were okay with her not wanting kids.......and you were accommodating her wishes over your own. But if she doesn't stay with you....it makes you a failure and you sacrificed the kids? I hope you will remember this when trusting her in other areas of the MR.
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Because I have gone for dual citizenship here and I would lose my native country's citizenship unless I am married to a US citizen.
Ohhhhhhhhh!
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Because I am stubborn and a fighter and I hate giving up.
How do you act when you are stubborn and a fighter?
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Because I don't think but rather feel.
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That's not good, b/c your wayward wife is operating out of emotions, also. There has to be someone with functional brain power!
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
