I cant go on at work anymore, so you guys wont hear my crazy ramblings much anymore, so sorry! HAHA! Had a great weekend with some friends from the boards. One of the best things I have gotten from my crappy sitch is the friends I have gained from here. I also went to the my dads, we went to the beach, D9 is no longer afraid of the ocean, we actually rode bikes on the boardwalk, saw fireworks on the beach from my dad's terrace, it was great.
We were talking at dinner about being gullible (I will believe any story you tell me) and it made D9 think of FF because he would always say I was more gullible than D9. It was a trigger for her to remember him. He still lingers on her mind. SHe is left with memories too. She said " I miss FF" I simply say "I miss him too"
Life post DB is funny. How we learn to sit back, not chase something that doesn't want us, how we know that someone who truly wants to be in our lives will be and we cannot force it, nor do we want to. Before DB, if I would have chased, called, asked why he is ignoring me, ect....... (I was also in my 20's at BD) but I see people I know at my age do that now..... but I won't. It may leave me with a sadness but I have learned to just feel it and keep going. I accept someone doesn't want me as much as it hurts.
It boils down to we can't always have what we want. Or, for that matter, what we need is not always what we want.
