Thank you for taking the time to write that huge reply Sandi2, it really does help. I am coming around to what I must do. Two steps forward and one step back. Its hard and takes time, but I am working on it daily.
I have found myself lately starting feel better about myself. Starting to say to myself that I deserve better, that I don't deserve to have been treated the way I had. That I can move on, that I don't need my W. Just some things I have noticed that have made me realise that my W is still somewhat in the fog, but its been enough to give me strength to start moving on.
Of course I still hope that me doing that will make her come to her senses, I mean, almost all LBH would be hoping, in the back of their mind, that doing a 180 would do that. But I am seeing the benefits of doing it to prepare myself for the future without her now.
Thanks again to everyone for their replies. They are helping.
