I hadn't heard from W in over 2 weeks when she texted me yesterday that she missed me and then she sent me a song that reminded her of me.
My mom also told me that W has been keeping in touch with her. My mom said W isn't doing well at all and seems to have regrets.
Don't get sucked in, Thornton. I worry, because you have "rescuing" tendencies.
W, an adult woman with an understanding of right and wrong, made her bed and now she needs to lie in it.
Of course she misses you. Of course she has regrets. You're Thornton and she walked away, hoping you wouldn't realize your value and would soften her fall. But that's not you anymore. You are not Plan B, and anyone who thinks you are is a fool.
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I'm really not sure what to think anymore. Coming back home was hard for me. I definately feel W's abscence and I've been in a bit of a funk since I came back from vacation.
This is natural, and it's okay. Let yourself have that funk, but have a plan to limit it and get back out there living a full life.
I would love confirmation that H felt the way your W does, but I also know it would bring a swirl of different emotions that I'm not sure I'd be prepared to handle. So just recognize that what you're hearing is going to make it easier in some ways and more difficult in others.
You've got this, Thornton!
P.S. The last time H did this I took a trip to LA to visit friends. One distinct memory I have is me in my rental car zooming around on the freeways and driving like a local, even though the traffic where I live is nothing like that. It boosted my confidence so much, because I'd been nervous about driving myself. It was a very "if I can do this, I can do anything." I've been thinking of that lately, and I'll be in the market for a new car soon and am toying with getting the same model as my rental from that trip.
