Count on ups and downs (IV)

[WillDo]

It has been an interesting day.

I had agreed to move out to start separation. This has been
after I gave in as W started saying that she would file for D otherwise. Why not move out now?
As a family, we will be in US for 6 weeks. W will be attending a course there. The plan had been to move out to the flat that we normally rent out. Yesterday, when cleaning the flat, W started saying depending on who moves to the flat... Well the day before she had me on the hook to move. This morning MIL called and asked about the house. She said it would be good if you had it with an agent. Almost 5 minutes after she hang up, W suggested using an agent. I'm not off the hook but not to the flat.

And tonight we had a chat. She said I was making her feel bad about the move. I said I know I am feeling bad. Then she started talking about events where she felt sad because of me.I listened and apologised. What more can I say? I don't want another conflict.

I suppose I will be at a nearby hotel or rent a room.

I also don't want to read into anything.

In terms of GAL, continue to avoid phone but do reading. my readings highlight the importance of loving yourself almost 3 different proses. That is my focus. And Law of Attraction. In the morning I felt it was really working.