I know I'm operating out of fear.... mostly financial and fear of pushing him away. But more so not wanting anything to be worse than it already is. I AM ready for a change I just have to be strategic so that he continues to give me money last time he cut me off completely. The L I met with said it can take a miniumim of 90-120 days for emergency support so he could go that long without giving me a penny which he did last time. .
He just left for the baby shower. I almost lost it on him spending an hour in the shower shaving himself and wearing new clothes. It's so disrespectful. He said when he left I'll text you later I'll come to the fireworks with you guys. I just said okay. But I think this is the perfect opportunity to have him NOT come. He's going out with whomever doing whatever he wants then coming for family time. I'm tired of sitting here like a weak woman like I'm just graced by his presence when he decides it's convenient for him to be around us.
