A WW? (8)

[lt0402]

Hey all, thanks for checking in. Things are going well here. Have spent the past week or so cleaning out our house before the closing, getting things into storage, and moving into D's and my new apartment. 100% focus on getting the place setup so D and I have an awesome home!

Spent my first evening w/o STBX a week ago on Friday. D stayed with her until Monday afternoon, so it let me get a lot of stuff done. Had a friend from work take me out that Saturday evening which was great to take my mind off things. The sheer exertion of the move was a good time filler too to get through that first weekend. When I grabbed D on Monday evening I was overwhelmed with joy. I had missed her so much that whole weekend. It was then that I realized it wasn't really my STBX that got me down anymore, it was knowing that 50% of my time w/ D had effectively evaporated overnight. That part is a downer, but from a glass half full perspective, 50% is much better than where STBX had started in this whole thing. So thankful for where that whole part of things has shaken out.

STBX continues to be angry and resentful. No real shocker there I guess. We were late by 10 minutes (took longer than expected to get D out of the pool and ready to go) on the first dropoff at STBXs place and all I got was vile and passive aggressive comments. STBX got mad via text that I'd accidentally grabbed some hair oil stuff when cleaning out the house. A few other things, but those are just a couple examples. It would appear, on the surface at least, that STBXs hate of me is still going strong, even with the distance bt us.

That said, i'm finding the distance to be refreshing. I'm finding the uninterrupted time with D to be amazing. D is holding up fairly well in all of this and seems to be very happy to see me and be with me during our time. Weird thing is that she becomes very neutral around me when we are around STBX for the first 10 minutes or so. Haven't quite put my finger on that one yet. But i'm keeping an eye on her and trying to be there for her in case she needs me. Regardless, she's seeing at least one parent be a stable, strong presence for her.

Still waiting on STBX to sign the S agreement. Been a few weeks since I gave it to her and have yet to hear a single word back on it. Wondering when that'll get done so this thing can come to a conclusion. Not the outcome i'd been working so hard for, but I believe I'm ready to accept it if that's what STBX wants.

D just woke up, so going to bail for a few, but will post more later. Thanks all for the thoughts! Know that i'm doing well!