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[bhappy2]

Ok so today she starts conversation with me and it was real casual and not faked on either part. Then when she left for work she didnt say goodbye...actually I really do not care and she is starting to realize it.

I am being honest here, if she wants out why do we beg them to stay? what would possess me to ask her to stay once she said we grew apart. There is no rational reason for me to want to be with someone who either is unhappy with me or has her eye on someone else.

Our children are saying "mom is being really nice" I say yes thats the way mom is...I know one thing is absolutely true IF YOU BACK WAY OFF they will start to see you are for real. Now keep in mind I have told her two things

1. I still love you...and

2. I want to work it out...

Her responses were "I am not sure" and "I don't know"

I have only told her this twice in 4 weeks and the last time I said it was 3 weeks ago.

Two of my children have asked me to keep trying they do not want us to break up... they are 20s and 18d we also hae a 23d and 21s.

I sense that we maybe able to recover but of course there is no certainty. I said this may just be a bump in the road she liked that... when she said there is no hope... I said forest fires burn down the entire forest and it comes back stronger than ever that may be just us.