The thing is, do YOU want to be married to this unpredictable, unreliable, grumpy man? A marriage is a commitment to be one another's rock. Will you ever be able to see him as your rock, ever again? If he came back to you right now, would you be able to believe him? Would you want to trust yourself to him?
You are so focused on just getting him back (understandably so) but do you know what that would look like?
I would really think about the questions Maybell asked instead of wondering what he is thinking, feeling, ect.
I am going to try to leave my personal opinion out of this..... but if he decides to "stay" I hope you won't just be glad he's home with no change. That's why this is such a process. While we cannot predict or control the future, I would hate to see you and your kids go through this a THIRD time. Letting him back without change on his part would be detrimental.
You really do deserve much better. I pray that your H would be the someone much better than who he is now. But that is not something you can fix, only he can
