Thanks all. I will say I never undermined H if he said no and then the kids came to me. They actually do that quite often. I was upset last night because the boys were being sweet and trying to help and he snapped at them. The mama bear came in place because these boys are the ones rocking the baby getting diapers clothes etc to help me now that H is gone.
Hi Blu.
Thanks for reaching out. We were def set up for fIlure in the sense of me being heavily pregnant working and school I was gone 60+ hours a week And add H buying flowers for someone else and being distant and it was a disaster. I seeALL of that.
Like I said I don't think he is well was physically intimate with someone but I definitely think someone was stroking his ego when I wasn't. I'm confused. Y him one day asking about my day then the next acting as if I don't exist. I know it doesn't matter. Every patient I see today is divorced on AD and just miserable. It makes me want to cry that that's where I'm heading ang I just want to grab on and not let go. DONT WORRY I'm not doing that lol but it's what my heart is telling me to do. My brain says come here and get yelled at for those feelings lol.
He told me he wants me to be myself and do what I want to do and not ask him for permission. Well that was right before he left. So then I wonder should I text every so often have a nice day or how's your day since he felt I never cared about him. This is my mind going through all of that just because last week was the first time he's asked about my day in over 3 months. I know drop the rope ...
It'll happen eventually
I just hope you guys understand my feelings instead of getting mad at me. I am listening. I feel like my heart and brain are pulling me in different directions.
