Roist - just want to say kudos to you for the quiet work you do over there. I read the list of your balancing acts and the way you remain present through it all is commendable.
I particularly empathize with the last act of seeing glimpses of beauty in your wife and cherishing those in a sea of distant interactions.
It is helpful to read this; just as helpful as the advice you give. Thanks for taking the time to post.
Me 41, H 47, M 15 yrs, S11, S13 BD 1: 11/4/14 we work on it; really I pretzel myself BD 2: 3/31/15 H goes down to "dorm room" 8/15: H back to MBR 10/15: H back in dorm room 1/18: H files, now divorced