SJW, this is tough, there's no question of it. And I'm very sorry you're going through it. But you are focusing far too much on the broken pieces of your life instead of looking for the glue to mend it back together. It sounds like step one is finding another job. You can't depend on your H for income or emotional support or ANYTHING right now and probably for quite some time to come. He's off in MLCer lala land where everything is green fields and unicorns flying through clear blue skies pooping skittles all day. So grieve, but do try and turn your focus on YOU and getting down to the business of picking up the pieces. There are many strong women on these forums that were in the same place you were and rebuilt themselves into Super Women that can beat the world into submission with one hand tied behind their backs, and I see that exact same strength and determination in you. I have a feeling you are going to get your stuff together and never look back, and by the time your cheating sorry-ass excuse for a husband decides to come crawling back you won't know whether you even want him or not (and you definitely won't need him). You can do this.
