I'm so glad to hear that you are doing wel and have found happiness.
Thank you for the hope on the other end. It's just what I needed to read. I really don't know anymore. I believe H is a good guy with problems. He is always willing to go out of his way to do for others BUT the problem is that when he is like this toward me he puts others ahead of our family. So I just don't know.
He didn't get in until 1030 last night. I had typed a text out that it was late and not to worry about coming but then decided to just leave it be and let him do what he wants. My mom saw him driving with furniture in the back of his truck. She works out right where he just got a storage unit. So I guess him helping someone move was to get furniture for himself which is why he got the storage unit.
The baby screamed bloody murder off and on from 1115-1245. My older two boys were in here too. H just stood next to the bed. Didn't offer to take the baby or anything. I ended up giving him the baby and he screamed worse. H just sat there and said he needs to get over crying like this and just cry himself to sleep. Then he screamed at S6 and made him go in his room he shut the lights off and closed the door because S6 was trying to comfort the baby and H said he was making it worse. At that moment I said H do not do that to S6 he is trying to help... then S9 started crying because of S6 being closed in his room alone.
It was a mess. I told H it was unfair to do that to S6 when he was trying to help. Hell these boys help me more every night than H and I'll be damned if he thinks he's going to show up here for an hour to cause more crying and stress. I don't need him upsetting the kids because of his bad mood and inability to have patience with a crying baby. Hell he hasn't seen the baby since Monday you'd think he could Deal with him for 15 minutes.
Anyway - he doesn't talk to me when he's here. He is so cold and treats me worse than a stranger. My dad said it's just because he has moved on to someone else and has replaced me and shut me out and that I just remind him of the life he is trying to get away from.
I don't think I want him to stay here anymore. It serves no purpose. He doesn't help and adds more stress. I'm going to give it til after all my assignments like I said but I think it's time we have a talk about planning a schedule. I can do this just fine on my own. Ya I'll be tired but it's better then seeing my. Boys be yelled at for trying to stroke their baby brothers back and sing to him.
