I'm going to read through DR the next couple nights. The baby is super fussy and clingy today he has to get 3 shots today. Poor guy. Took the boys to lunch after and we've been hanging at home since the baby is fussy.
25 - you give me a lot to think about BUT I will say I'm not entirely convinced H wasn't the man. I thought he was or all in on our marriage. I think he was. Well I know he was. Until this year. Like I said it was like a switch flipped in February. Something changed. My dad agreed - he is very close with H and said around the times of the flowers he gave the coworker it was like he became very disconnected. He connected a little when baby came and then came severely disconnected the last month. That's the most frustrating part is he can just flip like a light switch.
The one thing I know about H is when things are good for him it's great. If something goes wrong or he's unhappy about anything then it radiates to every relationship and thing in his life. He's continued to tell me he isn't happy with himself and that I'm the source of his unhappiness.
I'm always typing on my phone so it's hard to remember every point in trying to respond to.
Why is it so hard for me to accept that I shouldn't be trying to save my M?
I feel like I should be doing something for my M, for my family for my boys ... not for me. I've always put all of them ahead of me.
